Sunday, April 11, 2010

Living Vicariously

Having a moment of self-actualization -- that split second where you know why you were placed on this earth.

It happened last night, at Son #1's high school Spring musicale. He played Jack (of Jack and the Beanstalk fame) in "Into the Woods" and he kicked it. I am the proudest mamma on the planet because my boy can SING!

  So, evidently, I was born to breed a talented child so that I could live vicariously through him.  I was always just semi-talented, but this kid is way talented.  I suppose all stage mothers think this way; but I'm glad he surpassed me in talent and drive -- because his future is my ticket out of a bleak retirement! 

In this play, Jack is a dim-witted character until he saves the day.  The first act is all true to the Grimm Brothers' fairy tales, including Cinderella's evil step mother chopping off the toes and heels of her daughters so the slipper will fit.  But the second act was dark, with the message, "Be careful what you wish for."  Lots of death and sexual references, which I found to be fun.

Can't wait for his senior year and beyond.  Should be a fun ride.

Saturday, April 3, 2010

I am a published author.

Got the letter and the first-run author's copy of Thresholds and Other Ruminations last week.  It's taken me this long to come down from the cloud I've been perched on.

I shared my copy with folks who are important at work:  the English Department.  We are all very cool people, and we know how to properly use our swear words.  I also shared it with Loree the psych teacher and Miggs the French teacher, and I asked them all to keep it on the DL. 

We shall see.  I also programmed that First Amendment Lawyer into my phone, in the event they summons me to the HR office at 3:20 again.  Actually, Gurnie said to never go to a meeting without representation...so I won't this next time.

I keep wanting to come clean with my Principal so he isn't shocked when he finds out.  I want him to know that I didn't publish this to stick it to him...but to help other teachers and people who might have similar phobias and issues.  I wanted to honor my former and present students for being the troopers that they are.   I wanted to speak my mind in the present tense.

*sigh*

Funny how such a good thing could become such a bad thing.  I need my job now.  I can't afford to pursue my doctoral dream quite yet, and we just got a new house mortgage because of our sudden fire tragedy.

It was the best of times; it was the worst of times.